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2008-09-25T01:32:00.002+08:00

phew..god answers prayers man!..juz now my com tio virus la..all becoz of my itchy hands. i wanted to dwl a keygen for my game and ended up dwling a stupid virus.at first i tot it was a prank prog..coz when i click run, nth appear..so i click it again and suddenly alot of windows starts appearing..and my desktop started to have weird icons that are links to things like "quality porn, porn zoo" all tt sort of things. i began to panic. so i quckily close everything and tried to restore my system to 2 days ago.i did tt afew times and each it turns out to be incomplete and new icons keep appearing on my deskstop. i start prayin..laid hands on my com and the last time i gave up restoring the system and wanted to try reformating it, all the virus activites din seem to continue anymore. my com is healed! praise the lord. now i'm doing a full system scan to ensure tt nth else is left behind. thank you father.

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you..Psalms 33:22

2008-01-27T10:50:00.000+08:00

haha..i'm here to clear abit of the spider web. my blog seems to be rotting for quite a few mths. haha. haven got a chance to blog previously. i was too loaded by my work already. anw chinese new yr coming. i'm so excited. can get ang mo again..haha.my source of income.wahaha. anw sip's coming. kinda excited too. hope i can get thru the osip. recently i could feel that my relationship with God is getting better again. i hope tis wun juz break off again.=)

2007-10-11T10:47:00.000+08:00

today's the 11th. i shall be happy.haha.this whole mth's so slack. onli 1 module to go for this block.abit nt used to it.hahax. mebbe my body is conditioned to work i guess. workaholic.haha. recently i kept getting stomachaches. dunno wad happen. mebbe overstressed.but thinking it, there actualli nth much to stress abt.haha.dunno la.everything seemed to be so odd these few days. anw i hope wadeva that had happen would come to an end.i shall keep my comments to myself.if not pple will start saying tt i'm nt sensitive again. going to tighten my teeths today. wad colour shld i put? green n red? christmas' coming. haha. can start to prepare present liao. anw i miss working at the office. with felly n peixian. haha. so fun. hope jane's enjoying herself there now. haha.

2007-10-01T20:09:00.000+08:00

first day of school.as i've tot. its nt easy.thx god got mat to encourage mi.anw.it tough.but i'll try. becoz i got god as my strength.sometimes its ver discouraging.friends that i used to trust.used to be close with.used to love alot.turn out to dislike mi.i cant hate them coz they are still my friends.infact, i hafta learn to love them more. i guess God is going to mould mi again.pain ah.but i'll learn to endure.nt easy. anw.i slept in the seminar today.couldnt get the accent of the speaker.plus the sound system was realli bad.i dozed off after 30mins i guess.i noe its ver rude.but i cant help it.plus i feel so tired n sick.=P.anw their donuts were nice.mebbe becoz i din had a good lunch.my stupid stomach.haiz.anw tml no sch.can rest at home.

2007-09-17T19:14:00.000+08:00

yay!..its hols finally!..haha. though its juz 2 wks. i juz realise i love lime green alot these days. hahax. juz painted my nails lime green.=P. anw. i went to dentist today. wanted to extract my tooth. n u noe wad. the dentist told me tt i would need to do a minor operation to get it out. i've nv done any operate in my life b4 u noe. i could imagine how the knife slice across my gums n the doc tries to search for the broken pieces of the tooth by using tt pointing tool. poking here n there. eeeww! n tt's nt all. blood filled my whole mouth and here comes the big needle n thread, going in n out of my mouth making my whole gums swell like duno wad. haha. alright. enough of the crazy imagination. haha. well, juz keep me in prayer.=)

2007-09-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

3 days nv post liao. same thing. i'm still as stressed. so i really need prayers. hee. 1 more wk to go. haha. anw my blog is not dead now. so do tag mi. haha. today had my bs test today. got A wor. haha. finalli after so many modules there's one tt i had done well.=P but all thx to god la. coz i onli studied for it last night and i managed to remember all the verse. haha. tt's nt the pt actualli but anw. haha. i predict i'll get ver involved with church stuff soon. coz christmas coming!!haha. but time passed really fast. cant imagine tt i'm gonna grad soon. hmm. lotsa decisions would hafta be made. ahhh!!!!..going crazy soon!!..haha. sorry too stressed up by my work. pro designers work this way.XP

2007-09-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

i'm nt stuck anymore! harith cleared all my doubts.haha. anw. i tink i'm not so against jia qi anymore. somehow i juz felt tt she's juz another in perfect person that needs someone's care and confirmation at times. these 2 days we have been talking quite alot to each other. compared to the past i mean. i guess God put us together again in the grp for a reason. i've started to care about her instead of commenting. i'm nt as nasty to her as b4 too. i guess God's using her to change mi bah. anw tml's jayden's grp submission of the brief. hope they can make on time.

2007-09-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

my headache came back again juz now during my retail klaz. i guess i'm too stressed out juz now. i was totally stuck on what i'm suppose to present today. i've got totally no idea wad i was doing. i felt so paiseh to pin up my work. they are like so crap la. haiz. thank God harith was ver kind. he din say words that are ver hurtful. i mean if i were to be the lect, i would be super upset by this kind of quality of work la. haiz. so disappointed in myself.=(

2007-09-03T12:24:00.000+08:00

hey all..i juz did my spring cleaning..so no more spiderweb..hehe. yay! hols coming in 2 wks time. gonna earn some money. but i'm still not if i shld do freelancing. gonna work hard for this 2 wks. muz end the block nicely.haha. hafta work with jia qi again. i guess it's a test for mi. hafta learn to be patient. design sch is realli a place which allows me to grow. spiritually and character. alot of invisible test that i'll need to overcome. not an easy path. but i'll learn=P

2007-04-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

梦幻的爱情只能存在在自己的幻想中。因为到现实生活中，心中所谓的幸福只不过是自己的一厢情愿。

随着时间的过去，他的模样好像已渐渐的变得模糊。我以为自己已经对他的事情完全不在乎了。毕竟是我先选择离开。但每当我和他们在一时，他的影子反复的出现在我脑海里。他们常常会因为他为我抱不平。我很感激他们。但他们似乎没发现到每一次他们提起到他时，其实都在触碰着我心中那未痊愈的疤。我常提醒自己要坚强。因为这样那道伤口才能完全的愈合。

2007-04-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

i received my results yest. i was really happy with it. i hit my target 3.51. seriously, i realli wan to thank God for it. if its nt Him i wun haf pulled thru the last sem. all the glory shld go to Him. even though i might seem to be sad over my results coz i got 1 C+ with all the other As, deep inside my heart, i'm really contented. dunno y i suddenly feel like doing better fer this new sem. realli. i wan to use my results to glorify Him. i wan to do all my best for Him. i shall nt complain about getting exhausted animore. coz i noe i can seek rest in Him. n He'll definitely watch and guild me thru'..

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you..Psalms 33:22

2007-03-29T16:45:00.000+08:00

hey..i'm here to post again..long time nv post le..still at klaz..this block super boring la..i feel like wasting my time..anw mac com is so hard to use. i'm so nt used to it. haiz. hope we can bring our own laptop and use. these few days i got to know one of my friend more. realise that he haven found any purpose in his life. he felt so lost and meaningless living in this world. i feel like spreading the gospel to him. but there's still a fear in mi that i would say things tt will mislead him to wad chrisitianailty is actualli like. u noe, i'm nt good at words. haha. but i've ask him afew qns that prompted him to wan to noe more abt christ.he seemed to be quite interested actually. i invited him to the easter day event. but he's nt able to make it. i guess i shall continue to pray fer him. well. the lecturer is back. time to go back fer lesson.ciaoz

2007-02-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

i finally got time to post smt there..well, when was the lst i posted smt?..hahax..sorry for nt updating..i guess this has been abandoned for like half a yr?..hahax..alot of things had happened..i guess most of u guys knew wad was it..i've learnt alot, been thru alot, and seen alot..i hope i've become more matured and God favored. This morning was my P1 submission..things din realli go well..but as wad my proj was named, 'thru' it all', God really watched over thru out the whole proj.. even though there are hard times, times when i got so stressed up tt i broke down n cry..(jane shld know abt this=D), times when i dint slp at all fer 2 nights and skipped my meals, i believe the Lord had been walking this tough journey with mi. even till this morning before the design space's door was shut. frankly, on all my 4 submission days, things alwas goes wrong. esp today. i woke up late. so i rush out of my house n onli realise tt i forgot to take my process sketches. so i ran back to take. tt makes mi a lesser chance of getting puncture. we took a cab down sch from bedok n literally ran up to the design space. put down my things n rush up to the studio to get my mock ups. everything was so dramatic. the time was so tight tt i din even get to print my cover page and change my human scale. however, God is alwas faithful. he send so many of his angels to help mi with the pin'in of my boards and after the assessment, one of the lect msg mi to tell mi that i did a good job. God nv forsake mi. He gave mi the best when i gave him my best...

2006-07-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

while i was trying to install my printer juz now..i realise how my things get spoilt so easily. i'm juz being impatient. though my pc has realli trained mi quiet alot. i'm juz used to fast paced i guess. anw, i realise i was tot something's wrong with the device whenever it lags. den i would keep on refreshing the prog which would make it worse. in the case juz now, i kept on plucking the usb port fer the print continuously coz it does not seem to be connecting with the com. after tt den i realise its becoz i left one of my prog open. tt's will its unable to scan. i hope my bro doest read this. if not he will kill mi fer spoiling so much of his things. i guess i hafta learn to love my things more. Love is patient isnt it?..haha

2006-07-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging fer quite some time. i've been thru alot these couples of wks. recently got so buzi over my work that i dun realli slp well. plus the world cup. though i was half aslp while watching. i realise i'm so tired. tired of being creative that my ideas all turn out to be so simple and nt special. mebbe i'm juz too exhausted. too lazy to tink i guess. joseph joined our clique recently n we had lotsa fun tgt. though there's alwas rumors of mi. i dun understand y. haha. last wk end was quite fruitful for mi. received alot spiritual n kenna motivated to serve the lord more. understood alot of things that human cant resolve. realise how i shld realli love my friends and not juz being kind to 'em. understanding and accepting. i realise that actualli there's still alot of bro n sis in christ that the Lord had put around mi to gimme the support. He has continuously showed mi how arrogrant i'm at times though it seems that my friends doesnt realli realise. but i still tink that its ver ungentlemanly of a guy to keep saying the f word.=D

2006-06-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

becoz of this i quarrel with my friends..at firx nobody wans to go..when the deadline is near everyone suddenly wanted to go..leave mi no choice but to spilt the grp..its nt a easy task to fill in the spaces in the grp..n now when its juz tml..they told mi they were nt coming..is this a test from God?..will he help mi with it?..shld i juz keep them in prayer hoping tt they will go or shld i juz find someone to replace?..its so last min tt i dun even noe wad i shld do..but i tink i'll still trust in Him..who else can i trust other den HIm?

2006-06-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

i slept until 1 today..12 hrs of slp i guess..i dun tink i'm tt tired..but juz feel like slping..mebbe becoz of the weather bah..roughly packed my room today..tot i was giving tuition today but it was cancelled..so whole day was at home..i took out my nail polishes n started figuring how to do something special out of them..i painted my nails silvery pink..actualli wanna to try drawing using the other colors but it doesnt seem as easy as it is..haha..well..i used my watercolor instead..den i apply a layer of hardener on it..smart huh..i tink its a better choice for a beginner like mi..at least u can juz wash the art away if u dun like it..if i would to use the nail polish..i would hafta watch away everything including my basecolor..wuldnt it be ver troublesome?..haha

2006-06-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

i found 2 great architecture bks from the library today!..one of them is the bk tt perry alwas print his notes from..n it teaches alot..it touches on communicating ideas n story boarding too..i was considering to buy one..but it's too ex..i rather photocopy..hahax..well..the other book is on howta sketch n render better..i told mavis abt it..she say i shld lend it to jayden..well,..haha..

2006-06-03T11:36:00.000+08:00

sat morning..
woke up at 7..actualli i told my mum to wake mi up by 630..coz we planned to go jogging..anw..though i felt quite exhausted now..it was a great experience to jog in the morning..esp around the chinese garden..AND..i got a big discovery today!!..we can go into cg for free!!!..total free!!..hahax..anw i an eagle n an comono dragon there..its actualli quite a nice place..hahax..

2006-06-02T22:17:00.000+08:00

its finalli friday..poly's hols is realli hols..totalli nth to do..den i cannot go out with my friends oso..those in jcs got their own work to get buzi with..den those in other polys still having lessons..so sian..every day having to come out with things to do..hahax..but thank god got mavis n jayden..if nt i dunno how i would haf spent my hols man..haha
well, actualli today i'm quite occupied..woke up at 12..den went to dad's place to help him with his accounting..reach hm at 5..juz nice for my show..den 6 i started to edit my blog..7, continued with my tv programmes..until now..later still got a horror movie until 130 i guess..den its sat!..haha..more shows!!..too bad jayden n mavis dun dare to watch the horrors later..if i nt i guess it will be extremely fun man!..hahax..guess i'm going jogging tml!!..btw..hope u like this new layout of my blog..n of coz enjoy reading my entries=D

2006-03-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

sunday morning...1215..hmm..saturday was juz 15 mins ago..i wanted to write an account on sat..=D..woke up at 1pm..actualli i'm alreadi awake at 1030 becoz disturb by my mum so i decided to slp more..btw whenever i got disturbed by somebody when i'm slping..i'll get ver agitated n hafta slp fer at least another hr ..btw is deep slp..if not ar i'll haf headache fer the rest of the day..i tink i forgot to do smt..but i forgot..ok..nvm..
anw..i spent 11 watching tv..haha..forgot i wanna type le..so i shall end this entry=D

2006-02-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

hey!..NEW POST! NEW POST! NEW POST!..hahax..today or perhaps yest..coz now its alreadi 12 plus..hahax..juz now i caused alicia to be late fer guitar lesson..feel so sorrie man..coz i asked her to eat the guo tie with mi..den the guo tie came late n its steaming hot la..so she cannot finish in 5 mins..hahax..so late la..btw alot pple attended the guitar course wor..i realise i was the onli one left in hawker after alicia left..so i gav my mum a call..she asked mi to go town to meet her..btw its china town..hahax..n i regretted man..she kept asking mi to EAT N EAT N EAT!..hahax..actualli nt so exaggerated la..but i felt so bloated on my way hm..as i've said i had guo tie b4 going to 'town'..when i reached there i bought a bottle of sugar can..those 500 ml type..but coz we are going into the departmental stores..so cannot bring in the drink..cannot put in my bag oso coz it had water droplets around the bottle..IT'S COLD..hahax..so i finish the whole bottle at the spot..den i tink after nt long my mum n her friends wanted to eat fruits..those cut ones la..coz i felt quite after tt bottle..so i saidi dun wan..but my mum insisted..so no choice..hahax..den i tink after around half an hr they wanted to haf dinner..so we went to haf dim sum..DIM SUM!..U NOE..D.IM S.U.M!..DIM SUM!..hahax..its ver filling one la..den they ordered alot somemore..den no choice hafta eat..coz its realli nice..so in the end i ended up feeling so terrible..but i wanna thank God fer the angel tt prayed fer mi..after 3 hrs..i felt much better le..woh..long story at china town..hahax..k..i wanna thank God fer grace..she reminded mi tt the posting would be released this coming fri ..if nt i'll still be waiting n might even lose my place in tp mah..hahax..ok..its 1 plus le..btw i'm trying to learn jap n korean..hee..でわまた,おやすみなさい。(well, good night then..)

2006-02-17T12:58:00.000+08:00

hey hey..
i'm back..sorrie fer abandoning this blog fer so long..but some of u would haf realise tt i still log on occasionalli to reply ur msg..hee
these few mths..as u all noe..i've been working on my o's..after tt i was busy working n my net was down..so i din realli get the chance to work on this blog..however..as i've said..i've got jon to help mi with the new design of the blogskin..but i tink it'll take him some time coz he's rather buzi..
well..now i'm jobless..so do look out fer mi..
this few wks..if u wanna noe..i've been at home slackin..everyday wake up at 11 slp at 2..watching tv, reading bks, serving the net, eat n slp are my daily routine..hahax..but i guess from nxt wk on i'll start doing sometink meaningful..regarding wad izzit..i oso dunno..wahahax..well..since i got nth to do i dyed my hair n painted my nails yest..hahax..hmm..ok..i got not much crap to write le..

2005-06-25T11:26:00.000+08:00

as i was bathing juz now..a qn hit mi..look at our church now..our youth..btw pardon mi if i'm too offensive..look at us now..christians..we call ourselves God's weapon, God's children..how much are we united as 1?..broken relationships..probs btw pple..wad is this?..body of christ?..fighting against each other?..to a certain extend i noe life is nv prefect..we will definitely face tis kind of probs..but are we juz gonna leave it to rot..no attempts to restore the relationships?..God cant help much if we ourselves to wan to let him use us..where's our passion?..has the tidal waves hit us to hard tt it broke up our tights?..in tis ver last days..can we still afford to waste every moment of our life?..aint the more we shld stand tgt as 1 to fight the battle?..every little spark tt form between us..satan is laughing at them..are we gonna let tis go on?..or does God haf a better plan?..i dunno..

2005-06-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

time flies..today fri de..wonder y time pass so fast..2 more days n i hafta go fer the battle liao..non stop studying..no more onlining, no more tv, no more sms, no more phone, no more going out..all no more..i cannot slack animore..tis is the last time liao..tml is the lat day i gonna go out..n no more..but who is willing to go out wif mi lehz?..hmm..i dun wan to waste my last day of hols wor..hmm..i wonder..hahax..aiya..forgot wad i wanna type le..

2005-06-23T15:40:00.000+08:00

i'm eating my apple..haha..hey..i seldom eats one ok..i meant apple..hahax..sumtink when wrong tis morning..i was so stressed out when i couldnt find anione to study wif mi..den i got so angry tt i complaint to God..'Father if u dun wan to get sumone to study wif mi, fine!..u better make sure tt i can concentrate on wad i'm studying..'..so God realli did..i was sorrie fer being rude..but God hears my complaints..he had alreadi planned the day fer mi..he knew how much more i can take in when i study at home at alone..in MY ROOM..den studying outside wif friendz..true i may haf qns..but it wun help much studying wif pple who are unfamiliar wif the topic i'm studying..as i was studying i kept looking at the clock..hoping to c how long i can stay still..den i tot of the sermon i heard a few days ago..'is quality life not more den quality clothing'..matt 6:25 edited by pastor prince..i began to wonder y God reminded mi of tis verse..den i came up wif 2 new similar phrase..' is quantity work nt more den quantity time?, is quality work not more den quantity work?'..hahax..amazing isn't it..hahax..

2005-06-20T11:59:00.000+08:00

Life is nv perfect until Jesus return..i agree..haiz..i tot the past few days were alrite..i could rejoice in the Lord..so carefree..so happy..but wad happen today..terrible..morning was gd..but later on wasnt..i shld haf gone to the klaz outing..tot i got tanned ..i felt so miserable..i've juz wasted my last day of slacking..tml i gonna start work..yet..my plan dun work out even b4 it starts..when my initial cant make it ..i'll get so frustrated n cannot go on..argh!..so back to the topic...wad m i gonna do tml?!..beside studying wif peixian..haiz..HS..tell mi!

2005-06-16T17:08:00.000+08:00

so sian..wad's everybody busy wif?..or is there sum probs wif my network..absolutely no reply from anyone..haiz..sian..today is thu alreadi..wad haf i done..wasted another wk..i'm gonna flung my prelims n o's man..dun even noe wad i'm doing..haiz..CAN SUMONE TOK TO MI?!?!?!??!?!!!!!

2005-06-14T13:29:00.000+08:00

shld i laugh or shld i cry?..he had return tt's the fact..n he has to return..haiz..mixed feeling..btw it's my own prob..he holds no responsibilities

2005-06-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

argh...feel lyk crying..cant i juz get down to study..everyonw's ignoring mi sia..all so buzi..haiz..sian..

2005-06-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

its mon again..so fast..they had went fer a wk le..cuming back soon..dunno y i'm kinda missing them even more..hahax..sian i wasted my mon again..no mood to study..dun understand a tink..kept feeling lyk slping..brain dying off i guess..din realli do sumtink productive..sian..i gonna start working at 9..cannot slack liao..2 wks to common test n i still wad i'm doing..haix..
i guess i'm tinking too much..lls dun seem to lyk our sch sia..'happie bdae mco'..hmm..when's rvco's bdae den?..hmm..mebbe we had smashed his dreamz

2005-06-12T22:27:00.000+08:00

hey hey..juz realise i've wasted my whole wk..hahax..din touch my wk at all..hahax..yest went lili's house..realli big..if i could stay in tt house i'll be contented..i dream..but i tink its too big fer mi..hahax..so to my future husband..whoever he is..i'm ok wif a small house..hahax..juz now went shopping wif my mum..bought 2 tops n 1 pair of heels..finalli!..hahax..1 gd tink abt going out wif my mum is tt i dun hafta pay fer my own stuff..hahax..but i help her carry k..hahax..tink i ver nice today..kept asking her if she is ok wif the stuff.. n the dist..coz her legs kind of cannot tahan de..hahax
i cut my hair tis morning..onli yvonne realised it..how sad..hahax..but nvm..i lyk it can le..hahax..i came to realise recently tt i'm getting more n more vain..hahax..dunno y..mebbe its part of growing up?..hahax..or izzit becoz i keep long hair..hahax..i dunno lehz..aiyo..izzit gd or bad..i'm afraid of spenting too much time on my appearance..hmm..gotta be more careful..hahax..gotta start studying tml..
--continue slacking--

2005-06-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

hmmz..wake up liao..head still blur blur..slept fer 10 hrs le..hahax..last nite watch 'lost'..hmmz..din noe it was a series..hahax..quite exciting..hahax..though i most of it..hahax..but its nice la..even my mum watch lehz..hehe..today jinghui n shihua came to my house to do the phys proj..dunno wad we doing..i realise most of the time we were juz entertaining ourselves wif haoteng's photo..hahax...hope he dun c tis entry..hahax..after tt shihua taught mi piano..though i dun realli get it..hahax..had steak again fer dinner juz now..ver full..coz i cooked 1 steak 2 harshbrown 2 dumplings 1 fishcake..ahh..ver oily..now got sore throat liao..hahax

2005-06-09T18:14:00.000+08:00

ee...y nobody tag mi sia..hahax..anw i'm back!from camp..realli tired..esp when the camp is nt ver fun..coz the people nt ver enthu..but can tell tt the com putin a lot of effort .last nite camp fire was realli sian..delications too long le..songs play abit nt rite..den fer the nite trail..make mi wait fer 2 hrs ..in the end din get to play..but i heard abt their plans..quite interesting..today actualli got amazing race..but becoz sumtink happen ..it has to be cancelled..wad a waste..
last nite lls said sumtink to mi which is ver hurt.."wei shen me ni the chen ji na me lan"..i was so pissed off lo..i haf been depress over my results fer while afew days le lo..hao bu rong yi overcome le..he sae tt to mi again..=(..

2005-06-08T10:41:00.000+08:00

wah...ver tired..din slp enough i guess n the weather is so gd sia..gd fer slping..hahax...juz now went sch juz fer LKC's lesson..so sian..shldn't haf went..kinda waste my time..anw ..i'm going camp later!!!..excited..coz later got night trail..muz be exciting..hehe..i haven start packing my bag..dunno wad to bring..i dun feel lyk bringing alot of stuff lehz..not planning to bathe n slp either..hahax..shld i bring my notebk along?..den can write down my experiences n thoughts wif God at camp..
hmmz..i make fishes fer the seniors..those tt din cum so sad..hahax..aiyo ver tired now..dun wan to write liao..=P

2005-06-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

hey friendz..dun be too worried abt mi..i'm alrite..in the process of healing..hehe..thx hao..
today the 3 of them came to my house..jane yvonne n hao..woohoo..~..i cooked steak fer them..finalli..hahax..so happy..though my piece still got abit raw..hahax..i too tired to cook le..anw ..we had a fun time eating n chatting though they came late..hahax..*yawn..ver slpy liao..hahax..juz now burnt my hand..got scar.. ver ugly..hahax..but they sae the food was nice..hehe..n vonne sae she wanna stay in my house summore sia..hahax
tonite they will be going off to china..we gonna pray hard fer them..hahax..i ver excited oso..can't wait to c them leave...hahax..no la ..juz kidding..hmm..tis wk lonely lo..gotta word hard n heal fast..=)

2005-06-05T21:19:00.000+08:00

haiz..i wonder y i juz can't get off from my old self..i tried ver ver hard..but it juz kept cuming back..its is unhealthy..i'm getting irritated..y does God wan to create mi in this way!..wad's His purpose in mi..i'm damn frustrated inside mi ..i dun care wad words i use le..i'm slaming my keyboard hard!..i dun c are if i've to get a new one..y it izzit lyk tt..y can't i haf more confident in myself ..when i do so i'll get ver arrogant..wad do u wan mi to be God?..i realli dunno howta balance myself..i'm all muddled up..haiz..y do u wan to rise mi up so quickly?..can't i learn to grow in other ways?..i'm so stressful..pple look up at mi as a leader..yet i din set a gd example..i tried but fail..tried again and again until i got tired so frustrated in myself tt i almost gav up..but i noe God u dun wan mi to ..u wan to mould mi..n i shall allow to do so..but u hafta show mi howta get up when i fall?..i can't find the way up myself..i need u to be my light..haiz..

-->i need counselling<--=(

2005-06-04T11:59:00.000+08:00

hmm..yest n today had been working on a blogskin..but in the end gav up..coz i found 1 nice one..which is the one i'm using now..hehe..hmm..today is the firx time i finish so much hwk in a day..actualli i'm suppose to finish all by tis wk..but cannot make it la..still left wif 3..gonna pia tml..
haiz..today my laogong diarrhea..actualli wanna ask her n hao cum over my houe fer steak de..den von can stay overnite..but in the end none turn up..so disappointed..but aiya..nvm..i invited jane n her over on mon..we going swimming den cum my house fer steak..hehe..so sad hao gonna missed it coz he's going china..but i believe the team is gonna glorify God there and bring back fruitful testimonies..hehe..i'm going fer camp on wed too..hahax..wonder wad we gonna do..they told us nth abt it..hope we dun hafta pay ya..hahax..
hmm..i wanna watch madagascar..who wanna watch wif mi?~..hehe..tml's sun..i'm nt serving..hehe..can go abit late wor..coz i'm gonna pia my hwk..aiya..nth much to crap liao..c i'm repeating wad i've said..hahax..

--->painting my nails<---

2005-04-30T15:14:00.000+08:00

sorrie guys..i alwas update in lyk once a century..

previously net spoil..wan to use oso cannot..haiz..so sian..i'm in the mist of mid yr n yet i can't get myself to do anitink..in fact i dun even noe wad i wanna do..slacking everyday..feeling terrible when i look at my notes..the facts juz can't get into my brain..n i feel so stressed up..mebbe its the aftermath of syf?..i dunno..i feel so unprepared fer my exams while the others all seems so expert liao..ready fer the o's..i feel lyk repeating my yr..or mebbe isolating myself..nt to touch those bks again..sian..
these few days are terrible fer mi..i felt tt there is a barrier between mi n God..i can't hear his voice..i can't feel his presence..i wanna get near him..but each time sumtink juz pull mi away from him..i dunno wad the tink is but i realli hope God could remove it fer mi..tml is the deadline fer the composing of songs..these weeks i alwas wanna compose sumtink..but i felt it ver hard to praise him..i can't feel anitink when i sing to him..it seems as if i'm juz plainly singing songs..
haiz..mebe i'm so stressed tt i need sumone to tok to..but everyone juz seems so buzi..no one is willing to stop n listen to mi..n i feel tt i can't get my mails over..my "postman" is missing..
i tink sum of u haf alreadi notice tt i looked abit troubled yest..yest tt korean tinky..i felt tt my spiritual level is so low..i looked at everyone..they all can get into worship..n sense God's presence..i wanna do the same tink but i couldn't..i can't concentrate..i feel as if i'm putting up n show..even the sermon..i dun even understand wad the pastor is toking abt..tt makes mi even more irritated..i feel so ashame in front of God..tml is my bdae n i dun feel ani excited at all..hope tml will be great..

2005-03-25T09:41:00.000+08:00

heyhey..here cums the princess again..hahax..today is gd fri..wad does gd fri meant to u guys?hmm..to mi its God salvation n love..remember the passion of christ?.. every scar on Jesus represents our sins..He carried them all fer us..he din haf to do it..a messiah..a perfect person..God's onli son..n yet he is willing to die fer us..coz he loves us..

recently i came across tis article..i toks abt mary, jesus's mum..forgot the content..but it made mi realise smt..today 25/3..is juz 9 mths b4 the birth of christ..25/12..on the 25/3 2005 yrs ago..jesus appeared in mary womb..n on the same day..he crucified..does it meant smt?..wad's gonna happen tis time..?jesus's return?..i dunno..how true izzit i oso dunno..coz nt all babies take exactly 9 mths to cum out ya..hahax..

yest went to watch the eye 10..nt nice one lo..nt scary at all..haiz..wasted my $8.50 again..hahax..anw enjoyed our fellowship wif the friendz..btw the movie is kinda funnie instead..hahax..

2005-03-16T21:46:00.000+08:00

i feel so terrible..i wan to get out from the 2 of them but i can't..i seriously dunno wad to do..they consulted mi..but i dunno wad to tell them..i can't make the final decision fer them..i knew wad they did ain't right..but wad can i do ..they are my gd friends.. i kept the secrets fer them but i knew it will hurt others..i feel so helpless..i tried to stay away from them..but i can't ignore them totalli..haiz..

2005-03-16T15:47:00.000+08:00

yest was sec1 orientation..it was kinda sian..but my grp still got the most honest award..hahax..cool huh..the committee came out wif lotsa water game..but i wasnt wet until the last part when agnes attacked mi from the back..hmm..my sec1 juniors were nice..they kinda mixed well wif the sec2s..yest was the firx time i saw them..they are so cute..hahax..but so sad..i'm leaving co soon..hahax..looking forward to our farewell party..hahax..

tis morning i went to twinkle childcare fer cip..i kinda oragnised it one la..its so fun there..at firx we were quite scared as to wad to do wif the children..but i realise tt the children were ver enthu..we started off wif a sing n dance section..we did 2 songs wif them..they are so native n cute..hahax..after tt they went to the playground to play themselves..they were so discipline..after games they will take their own bottles to drink..hahax..after tt they brought us to their klaz..so sweet lo..hahax..i tink kids at their age are so innocent n open..i wun care how others look at them..n this is wad the Lord treasures the most..

2005-03-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

i'm hurt..

i believe he din meant to do it

2005-03-14T11:29:00.000+08:00

hey hey..i'm back again..u guys muz haf missed mi..hahax..sorry fer nt blogging..fer the pass few mths i've been working hard wor..hahax..
hmmz..today is the firx day of my march hols..but it dun seem lyk a hol to mi..i still hafta go back to sch almost everyday..there tonnes of hwk waiting fer mi..there's so many subj fer mi to catch up..still hafta spare 2 days to do my cip..if nt i wun haf animore time to do le..den there goes my nyaa..hahax..tis wk is so buzi..anw i finalli managed to complete editing my blog in 2 hrs..pro uh..hahax..
life haf been challenging fer mi in the pass few wks..i've been struggling between God health n studies..it isn't fer mi..haiz..long story..dun feel lyk retelling liao..hahax..haiz..ver sian..i shall stop here..
to be continued...
.::he kept mi waiting::.

2005-03-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

long time nv post le..da ji xing wo mah?..hahax..i tink sumtink's wrong wif my template liao

2004-12-06T10:59:00.000+08:00

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you..Psalms 33:22

mon morning again..hmm..refreshing..but i wanna write abt yest..hahax..last morning i attended the leader's course..n although i dun haf much ling shou during the pnw coz i wasn't ver concentrated..but as i sang the songs..i realise tt actualli the leaders had their own problems too..being leaders, more holy den others..doesn't mean everytink going on well..there's even greater challenge to face..indeed to becum the light of the world..we hafta be lit by the Lord..during the process we will feel pain..but if we held on to the Lord..He would add oil to us..Amen?..hahax..sounds lyk a pastor..hahax
last nite i tok to felly..when she told mi tt she was abt to give up..i suddenly haf the urge to find a verse to encourage...but i dunno wad verse to gif her..so as i flip thru the concordance..i pray fer God's guidance..awhile later..tis verse came to mi..but i dunno if it's the verse tt God wans mi to gif felly..so i continue to flip thru the bk..den i started to tear..so i juz type out the verse fer her..

"Have I nt commanded u? Be strong n of gd courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with u whenever u go."Joshua 1:9

guess wad's her reply?!..she sae she read the verse tt morning..dun u find it amazing?..GoD is speaking to her..thru mi..hahax..=D..*ee..there's a bug on my screen*..but nvm..hahax..ya..today i might be getting new phone..yay!

2004-12-02T10:11:00.000+08:00

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you..Psalms 33:22

yest was a buzi day fer mi..morning went church office work until 530..den go my mum there help out till 930..realli tiring..i miss the Singapore idol summore..but gd tink i managed to catch sum on my way home..yay!sly is nt a idol..hahax..though i dun support taufik..but i dun lyk to c sly becum the idol..hahax.seriously i tink he can't sing..its all becoz he has lotsa fans..hahax..btw sly is nt ver shuai oso..wonder y so many pple support him..hahax..taufik's fan is even worse..they still got wad 'marry me' club..is taufik realli tt attractive?..hahax..if all these fans turn their passion to God..how nice..hahax..anw..enough of Singapore idol..hahax..hmm..helping out at church office ain't easy..i tink peiwen's job easier..all she hafta do is to copy n paste the bible verses..i still hafta place those verse into slides..put spacing n so on..n tt program is realli weird..kept giving problems..hahax..got 1 time..i tot the com hung..so i kept clicking on the screen..i dunno wadda do at tt moment..den sumone came to ask mi if the com is hang..so nice..i din even ask n God send His man to help mi..thank God..hahax..hmm..lunch there was wonderful..esp the food..i had baked fish n peiwen got fish n chip..so delicious!..hahax..we had a gd chat wif jun lan jie too..she shared wif us alot of tinks..hahax..wanna noe more?..ask mi personalli=P..or can haf lunch wif her..hahax..hmm..quite enjoyable la..hahax..sad yest din c gui xiang jie..but nvm..coz of tis peiwen got to use her com..hahax..k la..its breakfast time..hehe

2004-11-29T11:58:00.000+08:00

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you..Psalms 33:22
hmm..mon..start of a new wk..today went angie's house..wow..house is realli big..3 storey..n she got a realli big dog..i love dogs!!hahax..it look scary at firx..kept following mi when i went into her house..den it started licking mi..hahax..so adorable..hahax..hmm..angie's mum is realli nice to us sia..cook lunch fer us..when i sat down look at the dishes i thank God..i feel so blessed..all my fav dishes..i enjoyed it so much..her grandparents ver friendly oso..after lunch still got fruits..so gd..hahax..
on my way home i bought a new nail polisher..hahax..dunno wad izzit called btw..suibian la..anw..when i reach home i started polishing my nails..den i kept complaining to jon tt my toe nails are so ugly..hahax..wonder y God created 'em tt way sia..hahax..anw..its ugly..hahax..*crap*

2004-11-26T16:22:00.000+08:00

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you..Psalms 33:22
hmm..its another morning tt i can praise the Lord..hahax..tonite got prayer meeting..long time nv go le..tis time i muz haf a break thru in my prayer..hope tonite..the Lord would put words to my mouth tt i would be able to bless the others thru my prayers..'Prayer is a ver Powerful weapon'..cannot neglect it..hope ver soon i'll be able to join xue n hao in the prayer grp..by faith we will be able to c God's wonder in LOL..

2004-11-25T14:09:00.000+08:00

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you..Psalms 33:22

yo blogreaders..

hahax..i'm back from camp..refreshed after a 13hrs rest..hahax..i pon sch today..coz dun feel lyk going aniwhere..hmm..after the camp..my spiritual life is once again restored..faith increased..passion fer the Lord is there again..hmm..tis yrs camp is realli great..i haf lotsa of breakthru..tis time..firstly..i hafta thx God fer giving mi a chance to be a grp leader..when i heard tt i was given the role..i was excited as well as fightened..i wan my grp to be diff from others..n i came out lotsa of interesting stuff..lyk identities, cheers, grp name etc..i prepared alot..though nt all of them were carried out..at least most of them were..the onli sad tink is tt the others din get to hear our interesting cheer n song..but nvm..anw we enjoyed ourselves..tt's the excited part..hahax..being a leader isn't easy..esp when david is my assistant..i was so afraid tt i would nt lead the grp well..the day b4 the camp..i got so stressed up tt stayed up late to pray..tis might sound nth..but tis is the firx time i open my mouth to tok to God..as in when i'm alone..n its the firx time i prayed fer so long..as i was toking to God..it wasn't easy..i felt so much pressure pressing against my head when i close my eyes..trying to focus on God..but slowly the presure was release..praise the Lord..during the camp..each time after sermon..we would hafta share abt how we feel n wad God spoke to us..fer those in my cell u would noe tt i'm one tt dun realli lyk to share much abt tt topic..but as i lead the discussion..God put words into my mouth..i wasn't ashamed of anitink..i shared all the problems n encounter i had wif God..hmm..btw i thx God fer my grp members...they were ver cooperative n they gav mi alot of support..thx peepz..thru tis camp i tink i benefited alot from the sermon..its lyk totalli meant fer mi..every word tt pastor edwin said stirred mi up..faith, fear, love..i suddenly realise tt God is so wonderful..He created mi so beautifulli..without His love i'll nt be around..'without love everytink is equal to nth'..i learnt alot thru the camp..i believe the rest of them learnt alot too..anw..i wanna thx the camp coms n the dao shi fer planning such a wonderful camp fer us..esp wenhao,vonne,jiamin,jaslyn,felly,yanling n alot more..thx guys fer giving mi lotsa encouragement along the way..hmm..i tink my post today is quite long..if u guys wanna noe more..cum look fer mi ya?..hahax..bye fer now=D
btw..'i'm lovin' it' ROcKS!!!

i'm lovin it..

2004-11-22T08:34:00.000+08:00

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,

even as we put our hope in you..Psalms 33:22

heyhey..i'm back to post again..hahax..these few mths i've been thru alot..spiritualli, as well as physicalli..ups n downs..lefts n rights..hahax..hehe..going camp in few minutes time..came to post so tt those who din go fer the camp at least haf smt to read n comment on..i believe u all sure got alot to tell mi rite..since i've nt been posting since september..hahax..so excited..can't wait to read those comments..hahax..today's camp gonna be fun..coz i'll be around!!!..hahax..juz kidding..i'm looking forward all the activities n sermons..tis time gonna learn abt LOVE!!..hahax..hafta listen ver attentively..hahax..cum back can share wif u peepz..hahax..k la..guys take care...will be back in 3 days time..hahax..God bless~

2004-09-13T19:22:00.000+08:00

BOO!~*YO PPLE..I'M BACK!!!!~*wahahax..u guys got miss mi..hahax..ok..today got lotsa to sae..hahax..last fri got chem remedial..den i was late..took 78..den got tis bird..dunno how flew into the bus..without the busdriver noticing..hahax..den when i board thebus the bird flew right across my face..so scaring man..hahax..den tis bird fly here fly there..everyone on the bus got annoyed..den it flew to the bus driver..the bus driver lyk ver shock lyk tt..hahax..so funnie..den he open the door to let the bird fly out...but it din..it fly to the windscreen there..den stuck itself between the door n the screen..hahax..so funnie..ok..bird show ended-

yest was youth sunday..so happy..i got engaged wif jesus..den go round showing off..hahax..so happy..budden the ring lyk abit big ya..coz tt time when i try..i tried on the wrong finger..den now its ver loose..dunno whether can change anot..but its quite nice..hahax..when i tot my frienz tt i got engaged..they all sae is baptize..hahaz...dunno y..hahax..yest's pnw n dance n video clip..everytink was so gd..hahax..praise the Lord man..!!!=D

today sch starts again..dun feel lyk going sch tis morning coz got headache..hahax..den ver xing ku...but still went..got back my amaths..din realli well..din juz now oral..so scary..i tink i din realli do well lehz..lyk nth to sae lyk tt..hahax..tink i gonna flung it..aniwae..tml shall be a great day..coz lessons end at 1340...earliest in the wk man..so happy..no co oso..hahax..can go home n slp =p

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2004-08-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

argh!!..i juz lost my a1 fer my emaths..i was so angry; depress; agitated..all kinds of feeling overwhelmed mi..y do i alwas commit sure stupid and careless mistakes...haix..but i'm ok now le lah..finalli its fri can take a break from the tests..but still hafta study later..dunno wad happen to mi tis wk...lyk cannot concentrate..keep falling aslp..mebbe nt enough nutrients ba..haiz..btw..now is gui jie..today mel tok so much abt the ghost stuff she heard..so stupid..hahax..even the tv show lame stuff lyk the top 10 songs fer the festival..hahax..so gao xiao..btw i juz realise tt i'm sitting among a grp of weird pple..2 alwas pms..1 i tink IQ too high le..alwas does things that normal pple lyk mi dun understand..the other was ok..all weird weird one..i tink i'm turning weird too..hmm..gonna study le..

2004-08-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

b4 u read on..look at the time tis entry is post..11:21..wad m i doing here?i shld be studying or slping?..i've juz complete my homework..i've spent my whole afternoon slping n doing nth..mebbe watch tv ba..singapore idol was cool..hahax..today i almost failed my amaths..its so depressin..though my klaz onli got 6 passers and i'm one of them..i'm totally disappointed in myself..i could haf score a b4 or smt..i've lost 6 marks so carelessly..juz fer nt stating the conditions..haiz..dunno y..i suddenly feel tt i can't afford to fail or do badly fer ani test le..the o's are so near..3 more mths n i'll be take the cl2 paper..n i needa work realli hard..i dun wan to retain..it wun be gd..

dun tok abt tt le..i tink i'm gonna get dengue fever sooner or later..i got so many love bites from the mosquitoes lor..i scatch my legs until they turn red.. its so itchy..juz i watch the news..they report tt the dengue fever rate is on the rise exp geylang..but my area is not of any better either..there's alreadi 7 cases here..juz around my neighbourhood..tt means my life is in danger..i better move hawaii fer afew wks..jk..but its serious..argh..can't stand it..

anw gotta study..cya~

2004-08-09T09:10:00.000+08:00

guys are bull shit..gals are pretty flowers..a guy+ a gal: xian hua cha zai nu fei shang..although guy may be ugly...but they are bullshit..they provide nutrients to the flowers..so tt those flower will continue to grow n blossom..however..those guys who are rich..handsome..attractive..are describe as vases..all the do to the flower is to contain them..soon the flower will wither..hahax..poor flower..

2004-08-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

wad a wedding..at firx i was so excited n looking forward to it..finalli my cousin is getting married..n he's marrying a malay..nv attend a malay wedding b4..everytink was fine until my grandma's friend came to sit wif us..i dun understand y she wans to sit wif us n nt my grandma..but anw..tt's nt the main point..the point is she is ver irritating..i dun lyk her..once she sat down she started crapping..she sae wad i ver lazy etc..den everytime play wif phone..den wad specs means i alwas use com nv study..wad shit is tt..teens nowadays..how many nv wear specs..i can study until wear specs oso mah..indeed tt's the reason y i wear..n my degrees are nt ver high oso lor..she's so crappy..after tt she started crapping to my dad abt his life..den keep tell him tt he has to go buy wad jade ring..waste money..den my dad listen until blurblur..den listen to wad she sae..she ask fer money..sae wad gif my grandma go genting to play..den my dad immediately take money out..so fast lor..my mum nag n nag fer money fer the bills he oso nv gif..aiya..she crap alot lah..sae wad it is fate tt we will meet today..she din expect to c us here today..wad shit is tis..if my grandma invited her to cum..den she will definitely meets us one wad..coz its my cousin's wedding lehz..we confirm will go one mah..so stupid lor..i believe she will sae the same tink wif she sits wif the others..beside she still ask my dad to remove my bro's bed..sae wad metal bed..cannot be in the house when my dad's zodic is rabbit..den he has to buy a new bed fer him oso..siao man..too much money..i'm short of money to use everyday lor..i'm sure my dad will confirm go do wad she ask him to do one..sian..ask fer so much fer wad..where u will be ferever is the heaven or the hell..nt the earth..there's no point if u were to be able to win the world over...coz it will nv gonna b wif u forever..instead u shld love the lord ur God..it might be tough..but it will train u up...aiya..i dunno lah...too many tinks happened today..but thx God fer tis morning's food sale anw..thanks..=)

2004-07-24T19:21:00.000+08:00

wad the..i lost money again..sianx..i dun care..i changing wallet liao..

2004-07-23T17:54:00.000+08:00

LORD U FORGIVE MI!!...

__i'm being more n more lyk a witch*

the work of the holy spirit..

2004-07-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

wow..blogger has better tools le..hmm..no wonder tt day alvin can't get the 'hello' programme..hahax..muz inform him abt tis man..=P..anw..today's service is abt shen lin chong man..pastor n chai pray fer mi..as i was speaking in tougue..the holy spirit filled mi..at firx..nth happen..i can sense tt smt had happened to the pple beside mi..mine was rather slow..but i continue to pray..as chai prayed fer mi..i had a urge to cry..but nth came out of my eyes..its was so uncomfortable..den my face started to get abit hot..den 1 drop of tear finally drop..i was lyk 'dry crying'..den i continue to pray...its so wad lor..wan to cry den cannot cry..as if smt is holding my tears back..den finalli i cried..when i cool down..i continue to stand there..resting..den i feel 2 gustes of wind ..strong ones blowing against mi..den chai came to hug mi...when i open my eyes..i realise tt i was alone standing there..pple beside mi either fall or gone..dunno y..last time oso lyk tt..everybody around mi all fall but nt mi..its so great experiencing God..hmm..juz now b4 service..mi n jane went to the staircase there n pray..coz we fasted..but forgot to pray..so went there to pray..den pple keep on going up n down..usualli tt staircase nobody one mah..its was rather disturbing..but we dun care..so we continue to pray..coz we close our eyes mah..so we dunno who's going up n down oso..den after praying..jane told mi juz now when she open her eyes abit..she saw 2 feets..tt means sumone's standing there lah..den after we long when she open again..the person is still there..tt means the person haf been watching us pray!!..hahax..so scary..gd tink when i open my eyes he's nt there animore..hahax..anw..its God day..giving thx..=)

back..

2004-07-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

hey peepz..

i'm back to bloggin..miss my stories rite..but b4 i start my entry..i hafta thx these pple fer helping mi wif my blog:john;qi;xue;fan;zhen;ah lu..=)

ok..i shall start..ahem!erm..these few days i'm feeling rather stressed..by sch of coz..studies n frienz..ever since my bro left fer aust..last sun..i've decided to work hard on my studies..coz i believe he is doing so too over there..i can't slack here..muz work tgt..oso..my whole family is working fer hard fer their life..i can't waste my precious time slack..tt's not my purpose on earth..i muz make use of every min tt i haf to glorify the Lord..

so i started working hard..on mon i woke up at 4 to study..surprisingly..i got jing shen..n i was ver concentrate during lessons..as i focus all my attention to my studies..i juz realise tt she cut herself again..fer wad reason i dunno..she becum ver quiet..she kept ignoring mi..i dunno wad to do..how shld i communicate to her..shld i cheer her up?i dunno..i feel so terrible..i prayed to God..

but as time passes the wound in her heart has start to heal..i haf warned her b4..she knew she couldn't do tt..but can't help herself from falling..life's hard..but wif God's love..it may not seem as hard..juz thx the Lord fer everytink..

hmm..tis few days will be rather buzi fer mi...quite alot of events cuming up..tests n stuff..so i wun be able to blog as often..anw..gtg study geog..cyaz..

sorry peepz..

2004-07-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

dear frienz..

esp those who reads my entries..my blog is under construction..so i wun haf time to blog..pls bear wif it..i tink it'll be alrite..soon..=P

slow to anger..

2004-06-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

walau..i ver angry now..i seldom use vulgarities one lor..dunno which idiot go n take almost all the coins in my wallet..its abt afew dollars lor..u may tink tt its juz a few dollars..nvm lah..but its still money..u noe those pple in developing countries..they dun even haf so much lor..n those money can feed them fer almost a mth..it can feed mi fer a wk one lor..ver wad lehz..its not his/her money lor..dun they noe how hard our parents work to be able to gif us those money..oh..i forgot..she dun work..if she does she will be able to understand..n she will not steal..ver wad lor..if she ask from mi..mebbe i'll lend it to her or smt..if she realli needs the money..wad's the point of stealing?..very fun izzit..tis is nt the firx time our klaz haf tis kind of tink liao lor..

anw..thx Lord fer everytink..i'm not tt angry until my whole mind go crazy..Love is slow to anger..tt phrase kept repeating in my head..ya..i shld love my klazmates..but at the same time..i can't let tis tink go off juz lyk tt..money is involve..n TIS KIND OF CRIME SHLD STOP!!i can't let tis continue..i'm going to tell the teacher tml..

lala~

2004-06-29T18:55:00.000+08:00

hmm..sch reopens le..so sian..tis term work gonna be tough n tight..lotsa performace cuming on the way n cl2 oral n listening cuming le..ver stress..last nite do hwk until 230..den sleep at 3..wake up at 6..qiang rite..i day slp 3hrs onli..hahax..gd tt today's nt ver boring..lotsa discussion..if not i sure doze off..today we played the songs we are going to perform soon fer the whole co..sound so erxin..i tink becoz..diff pple haf diff speed..den cannot cooridnate well..den kenna suan by princpal teacher n conductor..they dun tell u straight..they use a nicer way to shoot us..so evil..gd tink we are smart..if not still blur blur..hahax..

yest we changed our seats again..so we can help each other in same ways.i wonder y everytime i got to sit wif pple tt can get emotional ver easily..ver scary u noe..den they will do smt tt will hurt themselves to relieve their pain..dun understand y they would tot of doing tt..i tink it's rather gross n cruel..hmm..last term i sat wif another gal of the same type..now we are gd frienz le..n i tink she quit tt habit le ba..i dunno..hahax..but i believe..God has his plans..there muz be a reason y i was asked to sit wif her..though i dunno wad to do..but i'll hold on to Him..fer He will guide mi thru

...

2004-06-26T21:04:00.000+08:00

dun feel lyk writing..feel ver bu shuang now..my bad languages are cuming up..boiling in my head..dun ask y..its not abt the Go Wild tink..juz sum emotional problems..dun disturb mi!

2004-06-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

so cute!!

time fer a break..

2004-06-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

argh..having headache..i beta finish tis entry quick..den can go slp le..hehe..

tis morning..my alarm clock rang at 230..becoz sumone asked mi to wake him up..all becoz he wanna watch soccer..the person noe who he is..den end up i can't slp..den tis morning woke up at 9..quickly finish up my hwk..but still cannot finish..dunno how..den when i online at 12 plus..tt person onlines too..he watch until 6..woke up at 10..haiz..sick pple still slp so little..anw..he sick not my business..hehe

realise tt i kept using 'tt person'..sounds quite evil..but nvm..haha..juz now i went to help my mum..saw tt cat again..it walk past mi..without even saying 'hi'..no manners..hahax..it's buzi hunting fer food i tink..hmm..after tt i dun c him around animore..go home le ba..hahax..but i saw quite afew dogs..ver cute..u noe how crazy i m when i dogs..hahax..jk..but they r reali cute..

hmm..looking fer to tml..coz it's GO WILD!!..hahax..my team is rather strong sia..n vonne's friend joining us..gonna be fun..win or lose doesn't matter..as long as we enjoy..but i believe we will win smt back de..muahahax..dun play play wor..=P

day of j21..

2004-06-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

today got j21..i din know abt it..until last nite..when john told mi..hmm..wanna go last yr..but my mum dun allow..den i forgot abt it tis yr..hmm..anw..i tink i wun be able to go anw..coz i still got tonnes of hwk..i'm left wif 1 day..sian diao..but gd tink i did quite alot today..hehe..

tis morning i went fer detention..i was late by2 mins..actualli i tot i'll be late fer lyk abt half an hr..coz i left home at around 940..den i missed my bus summore..but when i reach there..fungmin wasn't around..i tot she will reach in half an hrs time..but she din turned up..while waiting..i went to the canteen to do hwk wif siqi..i went to check if she's here every half an hr..when i went there again at around 1130..jackson n weikiang had alreadi packed up the whole co rm..den dun haf to do anitink..hehe..anw fungmin din cum..pearlyn inspect..hahax..den i help her inspect summore..i open up all the cupboard n check if there is anitink i can do..but nope..all done...so shiok sia..wahahax..

juz now played wheel of fortunate wif jon..i was winning at firx..den the nxt 2 round i din even win a single game..argh..nvm..gtg play again le..cya!

2 more days left..

2004-06-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

hmm..tis morning i skip sch..coz i overslept..actualli i woke up at 630..den i c..still early..den continue to slp..when i woke up its alreadi 9 lehz..lesson start le..if i go at tt time the lesson will end when i reach man..hahax..so i decided to stay at home..hehe

today's qt msg was great..as sum of u all noe..my mum injured her hand..as i was praying fer her..i wondered y God let tis happen..but He told mi to gif thx..i'm thankful tt she onli injured half of her limb..not the whole thing..tinks may not seems as bad when u tink abt it in a positive way..

hmm..tml gtg sch clean co rm..as detention..dunno y she wan to chose tml..its the best day fer my hwk lor..sian diao..summore so early..hmm..wad if i were late..wad will happen ar?hahax..hmm..2 more days to go...forgot tis sat got go wild..hehe..btw thx siqi..

k lah..hafta go do hwk le..=P

long day..

2004-06-22T22:31:00.000+08:00

today nv touch hwk..die liao..i'm left wif 4 days..how?hahax..
went co today..not many pple there..they all sae go overseas..i tink onli kelly n amy ba..the rest sure pon one...but y these pple nv get caught one..so unfair..tt day i abit siao one..told fungmin tt time going to pon..den she realli believe..din even ask mi fer a reason y i din go..if she ask..mebbe i can still produce a letter from parent..stupid lah!..now hafta serve detention..regret telling her tt..i tis wk ver buzi one lehz..den she wans it to be carried out tis week..wad the..sum pple alwas pon alwas late but nv get caught..argh!!

juz now went my mum 's stall to help out..coz she not feeling well since tis morning..den when there's nth to do..i sat at the table..den i saw tis ver cute cat..i observed its every movement..den when it finalli settled down it realised tt i'm all the way looking at it..so it decided to play the staring game wif mi...so funnie...imagine u are playing tis kind of game wif a cat..wahahax..actualli there is possibility tt i might win..but suddenly john's msg came..den i got distracted..den the cat won mi..imagined u are beaten by at cat!!..how can tis be?!?!?..hahax..n tt cat ver proud sia..when i took out my phone..it still continue to stare at mi..den looked away..as if he is the winner..though it realli it..stupid cat..hahax..but its quite cute..animals are so loving..=P..gtg slp le..nitezzzzzz!

buzi + stress=??

2004-06-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

today is a buzi day fer mi..my schedule was quite tite..morning after qt..i practise erhu..if kenna scold again..den i jump rite into hwk...do until 3++..den lunch..den online fer awhile..den started ironing clothes..fer 2 hrs..n here i m to type my diary again..hehe..ver tiring..

juz now when i was hanging clothes..the bamboo drop down..firx time in my hist sia..so scary..gd tink i held on to it..if not the impact will be greater..den the bamboo ver sticky..my hand is full of a kind of black substance..ver disgusting..

2d'04 tt bunch of kidz is realli bo liao man..they used jiajun's acc to xiang wo biao bai..when they sae hi i alreadi suspect smt le.."hi dear"..jj nv sae tt to mi..from the dear..i can smell smt fishy le..den they asked mi if i wan to stead wif him n marry him..dotz..can't believe it..they r realli inmature..nth better to do..lucky i smell smt fishy in the firx place..hahax..

hmm..today ver tired ar..brain dying..tink too much maths le..hahax..gtg..haven eat dinner..;P

Rejoice in the Lord..!!!

2004-06-20T20:43:00.000+08:00

Praise the Lord..today's pnw was great man..long time nv c the youth jump le..mebbe becoz they juz return from retreat..den their passion fer Jesus is still high ba..but wadeva the case..its gd to rejoice in the lord..juz now's cell they shared tt they sumtink abt pnw..so gd..how i wish i were there..n the sermon is so influencial..God is doing great work in these young pple..hmm..sound lyk a old woman..but nvm..hahax..

i heard tt the spa there is M18 one..y so weird..i tot spa is fer everyone..hahax..but the guys managed to sneak in oso mah..hahax..sounded to fun..

i tink today's cell is rather diff..we no longer sit at our usual place..dunno y..everytime we got cell we alwas sit the same old place one..hahax..lyk fixed lyk tt..den lotsa of sharing oso..so nice..

today vonne abit hyper..can't stop toking..hahax..she can't even keep still fer a moment..hahax..den her jokes all not funnie one..onli she laughing..hahax..k..enough of teasing..later i scolded by her..wahahax..

sunday is so great..its God's day..no worries..hahax..so nice..
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it hurts..

2004-06-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

tis wk is full of injuries..

firstly i knock my head against the metal bar of my bro's head..dunno if my skull got crack anot..its still ver pain when i touches it..

nxt is my neck...dunno izzit becoz i din slp well or wad..i feel so uneasy..i tink the veins overlapped..i can feel tears cuming to my eyes when i twist my neck..

third is my toe..ver weird lor..dunno y i will trip..din fall yet hurt myself..dun understand..big hole sia..go read previous to noe abt tis wound..

++i'm still suffering from backache..those tt i've told will noe tt there's smt wrong wif my backbone..

i face sum emotional problems too..heart cracking le..hahax..

n juz now i keep feeling tt sumone has enter the rm..but there's no one..

weird sia..God..help mi get rid of those evil spirit n wadeva tt doesn't tao shen xi yue de..

frienz..i need prayer man..

i'll try harder..

2004-06-19T18:44:00.000+08:00

tis morning the sec3s got scolded by the conductor..coz on the 0707..we got solo piece..den we haven master the songs yet..++my friend n i din bring the scores..i tot i got bring but i din..i got bring other scores..so sad..den my friend is the whole file oso nv bring..got scolded until dunno lyk wad..but i tink my friend is in the wrong oso..nt sae tt i'm not wrong..but i tink she changed alot since the sec4s haf left..or izzit tt i've changed?..i dunno..she tends to be more proud..everytime lyk wan to pon co..break all the sch rules tt she can..she's a sc lehz..muz set gd example mah..aiya..i tink she becum ver rebellious..hmm..i noe i shldn't judge the others..but..haiya..nvm..
den when we were asked to play the songs..i was so surprised tt i'm the one tt memorize the most..even the better ones din memorize..the trc kept repeating tt we muz memorize..aiya..dun understand..wad i noe is tt we muz work harder..dun understand y pple lyk to be so anti..haiz..
comparing our standard wif the seniors..its far too apart..n i tink the rvco is going to close down soon..last time we were so cooperative..one section will start playing together..den the whole co will add in..its ver united lor..no conductor oso can..coz to them music is so fun..now we can't even haf the whole section to play tgt..everyone cares onli abt themselves...onli the poor souls of us does tt..so..i decided to ask all the sec3s to help..to build up rvco..we are seniors now..cannot play play le...if we dun work..nobody will..we muz go back to the jinyang's century..if not our gold will be gone..
hmm..new info shall be updated later..hee

pain lehz..

2004-06-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

tis afternoon i went to help my mum..on my way there..i trip over the step of the overhead bridge..i injured my toes..my firx toe got cut n bleed..ver painful lehz..now still pain..den i quickly walk to the stall..on my way there i went past a car factory..they were playing hillsongs..so loud lor..i can't remember wad song..but praise the Lord man..tis kind of place still haf pple play hillsong..when i reach there..i quickly go n wash the wound..there's a big hole on my toes..no wonder kept bleeding..
evening when i was buzy helping out..coz peak hours..wenhao suddenly msg mi.."wo hui lai le"..the way he phrase tt he has return is so funnie..lyk japanese..hahax..but when i receive tt msg i was happy..vonne oso..mebbe becoz we were missing the youth too much le..
when i reach home i called yvonne..she ver funnie one lehz..10 plus den eat dinner..when i call her she sae she wanna go study..y her schedule all lyk push back de..hahax..anw its fun toking to her..juz now i tuned to 92.4fm..long time ver listen to classical music le..suddenly feel tt i understand music more le..its so nice..so relaxing..i almost fell aslp while listening..hahax..but becoz its boring..but becoz its so mind-easing..hahax..so all muz learn to listen to such music..dun alwas listen to worldly music..not so gd sia..hahax..k lah...hafta end here..my toe is still painful..hahax..nitez

not wasted

2004-06-17T17:40:00.000+08:00

finalli i'm done wif my blog..i took mi almost 2 wks to solve the mystery..now my blog is much nicer liao..all thx to afew pple who've haf these days..my bro, miss duck,mr john..den of coz God..thanks..

today is another day tt i've not touch my hwk..hols is left wif so little days onli..how?there's still tons of them..hmm..i shall work harder..bsides i still hafta help my mum wif her stall..my hols is so buzi..hmm..today keep missing pple..wondering wad the youth are doing there..yvonne told mi tt there is a river there..how i wish i can be there catching fish..j/k..hahax..dunno if they were missing us..

tis morning when i woke up..my neck's aching..i tot it'll be ok soon..becoz mebbe last nite din sleep well..but till now..the pain is still there..so i hope u guys will pray fer my neck..=)..hmm..tt's abt all..hafta work on my hwk liao..cya!!

today..

2004-06-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

haiz..today is the 3rd day those peepz haf left fer the retreat..dunno wad r they doing now..the pple here in singapore are miss them all the time..i was wondering if they were missing us too..they muz be having fun there..i heard tt it was a ver nice place wif shopping centers inside the resort..dunno true anot..but i believe it'll be fun..esp when God is around..hehe

these 2 days i've chatting wif jane n yvonne on the phone..we tok abt lotsa tinks..esp how we spent our childhood..mine is one tt u will nv expect..i did lotsa silly tinks..but still tink its fun..after all not many pple will haf tt kind of wonderful childhood days..

i feel so buzi tis hols..everyday hafta go sch..anw i skip today..hehe..long time nv done so le..haiz..still got lotsa hwk haven do..n i'm left half of the hols onli..how?

anw i tink tis blogging system abit weird one..u will understand when u look at my blog..its a mess..anw..i'll try to make it look nicer..hmm...peepz..if u noe wad's wrong wif it..do gimme sum tips k?thx..

wad the..

2004-06-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

my blog is so ugly..dun feel lyk working on it le..today is great..God is the best..i love church ver much..its a place tt i find joy..i'll nv get lonely..coz god is alwas there..

juz now was so diu lian..i took wrong bus twice..i got on 145 den realise wrong bus..so i went back the busstop i took..my frienz were still there..gd tink they nv c mi..hahax..den i took 51..in the wrong direction..i take until chinatown lor..sian diao..i feel lyk crying lor..such a short dist n yet it took mi so long..my stomach is calling fer food..haven eaten since morning..den finalli my dad ask mi to take taxi..it cost mi $5 lor..haiz..

when i reach there...i took 3 bowls of rice..so hungry..k lah..tml got sch..continue nxt time..

wondering where i go?wahahahx

mosquito craze...

2004-06-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

hey hey..i'm back from chalet..3 days juz went off lyk the shooting stars tt dashed across the sky..
tis 3 days is rather a sian one..coz the chalet's location ver ulu..den go out oso no use..onli c aeroplanes..on the firx day..i was ver excited..the place is ver big n nice..it's a shi wai tao yuan..go swimming pool, bowling alley, bball courts, tennis courts, tabletennis, everytink tt u can tink of..ver cool lor..but..we onli brought bballs soccer..din realli bring much stuff..so i spent most of my time playing mahjong..i tink im addicted liao..cant stop tinking of it..second nite play until ver late..but i tink it will be gone soon..tis 3 days i saw lotsa tinks..a huge spider..realli big..a real kingfisher..ver chio..the sun rising..firx time in my life..onli c sunset b4..n most amount of stars..actualli wanna climb to roof top to c one..but too tired..God is realli wonderful..He created the most beautiful tinks on earth..
when i return yest..my legs start to itch..i got lyk around 20 mosquito bites..though its not my highest record..i got 1 time 50 plus i tink..but its realli itchy..i shld haf kill those bugs..hahax..
Mmm..later going concert..dun feel lyk going lehz..but no choice buy ticket liao..dunno y they lyk to put it compusary all the time..sian diao..haiz.go prepare le..bye!

yes!

2004-06-08T18:36:00.000+08:00

yay..finalli the tests over..2hrs ago..i was still worrying abt it..but now..im so happy..i did pretty ok..gd tink the sec2s were not around..if not i wun be able to get back the reesults so quickly..i dun lyk the sec2s..they are so arrogant..besides..they dun play well either..everyday play..slack..alwas cause us into trouble..coz they alws dun play well..den the conductor will scold us..coz we din teach them well..now the sec1s are going to join us soon..it shld be quite pressurized..even im stress coz they are realli gd..they learn ver fast..but the sec2s still duno the seriousness..haiz..dunno wad to sae..

anw..today ver happy..coz tml going chalet..hehe..long time nv gather as a klaz le..(sec2 klaz chalet)..unfornately sum of them can't go..i'm looking fwd tml..hehe..it'll be fun..coz i'm not ver close wif my sec3 klaz..haiz..dun lyk them..they lyk to backstab pple..so these few days i wun be able to post ani entry..whoever tt reads the blog muz miss mi..hehe..=P

scare..

2004-06-08T12:29:00.000+08:00

today mebbe the test fer syf..tt day i got the false alarm..tot the test was on sat..den i was so scare..in the end dun haf..yest i got the msg tt today might haf..i'm now ver scare..the exam is juz 2 hrs away from mi..wad shld i do..i dunno..juz submit myself to God..

Nobody Knows?

2004-06-08T12:03:00.000+08:00

" But if i go to the east, He is not there; if i go to the west, i do not find Him. When He is at work in the north, i do not see Him; when He turns to the south, i catch no glimpse of Him. But He knows the way that i take; when He has tested me, i will come forth as gold." --Job 23:8-10

tis is wad God told mi tis morning..actualli tis shld be fer yest..but i was too tired yest..so drag..i sensed smt's wrong last nite..i made my own assumptions n i was troubled..i dun understand why God does so..i was tinking of tt as i woke up tis morning..as i prayed..i commit the problem to God..n tt is wad He told mi..

today's material tok abt tis person..he realise tt he had leukemia n needed bone marrow transplant..there onli 20% chance of surviving..in the hospital..he was alone..depressed n lonely..Jus like Job he search fer some mightly work or word from God to give him hope.But God had another plan fer him..he did not send trumpets and angels with glorious signs and miracles..

" Know that the testing of your faith develops persevenace" James1:3..i believe tt bad news doesn't alwas meant bad..it may juz be a form of test of faith..it will help to shape us into a better person..in the process of moulding a pot..it will be painful..but the overcome is a beautiful pot..from a pile of clay into a pot..isn't it wonderful?..it reminded mi of the story of God asking Abraham to offer up his son..

God knows all about our deepest problems..He will nv forsake us..

*reference from "our daily Journey"

nOt lOvE..

2004-06-07T17:35:00.000+08:00

after months of struggle
i juz realise tt it wasn't love
neither izzit crush
its juz friendship
he is onli a good friend to mi
one tt listens n talks to mi
one tt i can share my tots n feelings
my heartbeats doesn't increase when i c him
but onli a sense of relieve
i tot it was love
but i was wrong
he is juz a close friend of mine..

*unbelievance will turn facts untrue...

sad

2004-06-06T17:42:00.000+08:00

i dunno wad happen to mi today...during the last part of the service..when we sing tt song..i forgot wad song le..tears suddenly flow out of my eyes..i dunno wad happen..i dun understand..i juz feel ver sad..when the service was over..i sat at my seat tearing tissue..i was undergoing a kind of depression tt i din wad it was..
then chai prayed fer mi..to c if i shld go the 'go wild'tinky..as she prayed..tears flow out again..haiz..realli dun understand..afraid tt others will worry abt mi..i quickly dry my tear n smile..so they will not suspect anitink..
den i went jp wif them..abit regret going..coz i go jp until sian liao..n i can't stay long..so there..sit down..look at them eat..den i tink i go abit crazy..i almost tok my duck fer a walk..haiz..
when i reach home i called yvonne..she told mi alot..which i shall not reveal..den i read my bk till abt 2

festival of praise

2004-06-05T11:59:00.000+08:00

festival of priase

today's fop was great..it was the firx time i worship fer so long..n is the kind of total focus one..we jumped n praise Him wif all our might n soul..i could feel His presence..it was so overwelming..
after the praise n worship..i went out to pray..as the pastor pray..i could gusts of air hitting my hair..i wonder is tt God or is tt the person behind..i dunno..
ohya..before the fop start..mi n vonne were scanning around fer cute guys..den we saw tis guy slping..he look realli lyk ah hao..(when he slps lah)..but he woke up..we realise tt he looks realli ugly..heng we din ask him fer his no..hehe..

last min work..

2004-06-04T16:14:00.000+08:00

oh no!..tml is the test fer syf le..anione who is choosen will enter the syf competition nxt april..i can't lose tis chance..i'va alreadi miss once when i was in sec1..if i dun get in tis time den i wun be able to get my 3 bonus points fer my cca le..den it will be hard fer mi to enter jc..all my hardwork fer these year will go to waste..so i muz work hard the enter..

but i'm nervous n scared..i'm still not ver gd at the piece..how?..i've been practising since tis morning..i tink tml will i go sch my hand will start aching..tis is wad i call last min work..all i can do is to practise..n hand the issue to God le..hmm..hope i can get in tml..

alone at Home..

2004-06-03T12:09:00.000+08:00

i'm so dumb tis morning..i went sch n tot there is remedial..but there isn't..i even msg my teacher to ask fer the venue..but she din reply..den no choice i hafta go home..everybody is going in the direction of the sch but i'm going home..so weird..but tis morning is quite cooling..reach home actualli wanna do phys tys one..but end up editing tis blog..gtg fer hwk le..

firx entry

2004-06-02T22:06:00.000+08:00

tis is my firx entry..juz trying out..=)..hope u guys can gif mi sum comments on improvement..thx